How do parents let go of their children even when you know it's the best thing for them? Really, I am sitting here crying right now (doesn't help that the dogs kept us up all night last night) just thinking about having to let Amaya go tomorrow. I thought I was doing good until Chris said something and I just burst into tears.
I know she is ready and she is so excited. Honestly, Amaya does not have one nervous bone in her body and she is ready to learn everything there is to learn in the world. This morning I told her tomorrow was the day and she said "Mom, I have waited so long for this day."
I even ordered her a special book to read to her today but after reading it Chris and I agreed that we couldn't read it to her because it talks about not having to be scared your first day. There is nothing in Amaya that makes her think she could be scared tomorrow so we don't want to make her think there could be a reason she should be scared.
It's me that is having the hard time. To the school she is just another child but to me she is the child I cried and prayed for, for 4 years before God gave her to us.
OK, I can't see anymore through the tears so just pray for me tomorrow and pray that she will have the most amazing day ever that she has dreamed about for so very long. Good thing it's nap time so I can get a good cry in. Amaya is out with her daddy right now so hopefully I get gain control over my tears before she sees me like this.