Here I Am

OK, so after you read my last post you know God has been letting me know it's time to get off my butt and get busy. So anyway while I was researching this morning I found this scripture:

"Once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act" Proverbs 24:12

Isn't it funny how God shows you certain scriptures just when you need them?

Then a song came on the radio this morning. I have heard this song for a little while on the radio now and God has put a friend of mine on my mind everytime I hear it. Finally this morning I couldn't take it anymore and I emailed the radio station to find out who the song was by so I could find the lyrics. The song is sung by a band called Downhere. When I read the words to the song (I only knew the words to the chorus) even though I believe God intended me to send this to my friend I couldn't believe how much it fit my own life.

HERE I AM

Sometimes your calling, comes in dream Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze, You reach for the deepest part of me, And call out for the things of eternity.
But I'm a man, of dust and stains, You move in me, so I can say,
CHORUS:Here I am, Lord send me, All of my life, I make an offering, Here I am, Lord send me, Somehow my story, Is part of your plan, Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans, Test my faith and leave me with empty hands, Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand? I know that you will finish what you began.
These broken parts you redeem, Become the song, that I can sing (chorus)
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness, And the fear that I'll fail you in the end, In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces, I can't put this together but you can.

Wow, is all I can say to this song. It was only through my pain and suffering of 4 years of infertility, through my pain of watching children I loved die when I worked in the children's home for severly handicapped children, only through my tears of sitting and watching starving children on TV for hours as a child and many other things that got me to where I needed to be to do the work God had planned for me.

I wonder sometimes if I had to see these things and go through these things for me to get there or was it just that I wasn't willing to until I went through these things?